As I write this I’m sat on the plane back to London. From the map I can see that we’re somewhere over Holland. The sun is shining, just like it always is, and the clouds are that perfect level of fluffiness that makes you want to open the door and jump straight out.
I’ve had a fantastic week in Sweden. The weather has been spectacular. The company the best I could ask for and it’s been relaxing. I feel like I’ve been away for weeks and am full of energy and excitement as well as being a little bit proud of myself.
Before going home I was a slightly worried that my stay would be just as full on and hectic as it normally is. That I would run around from one social thing to the next and though having a great time come home more tired than when I arrived. There are so many people I want to see when I’m home and due to that I normally try to fit in a little bit too much. I make the most of every second and as a result I often don’t have more than a couple of minutes to myself. As the date for my departure to Sweden drew closer I decided that things had to change and that this time my stay back home had to be a holiday. A proper holiday not just the intention of one. I said no to some things in favour of some time for myself and rather than trying to fit in one more coffee I’ve slept or relaxed for an extra hour. And I feel all the better and happier for it. For the first time in years I’ve had a 100% relaxing visit at home and it’s all down to the decisions I’ve made.
The last few months have taught me a lot about my needs and boundaries and that I have to start putting myself first a little bit more. This visit was a first test for turning things around and I’m proud for making it work. Tomorrow I’m off before starting working part time and I’m really excited about what the next few months have to bring.
Tomorrow – Day 233 | Cleaning out the closet
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