What characterised last week was probably scariness in small and bigger formats and how we learn something from every situation, both the ones we can control and the ones we can’t.
First up there was the lightning talk at Geeky that made me realise that though doing talks still makes me nervous before hand (which I think is a good thing) I really enjoy them once I’m up there in front of everyone. I’d noticed a shift in how I felt on stage at the Web Summit compared to other times and thought maybe I was just having a good run nervousness wise. I didn’t get the least bit freaked out by that sudden realisation that can come from it dawning on you that everyone is looking at you. And I didn’t feel uncomfortable and I didn’t notice my legs shake. I just enjoyed my time up there telling my story, almost feeling a bit sad when the time was up. It was the same at Geeky on Tuesday and though I still have a lot to learn about public speaking, my recent experiences are nice reminders that practice pushes boundaries and makes the difficult seem easier and perhaps even enjoyable.
Then there was the other scare. The one you can’t control and that makes the blood freeze for a split second in your veines. Kitty’s seizures that happened once followed by an all clear from the vet, but then once more. One time too many, or two if you so wish.
You know a lot about how you feel about someone or something when things are as they normally are. But when they get turned on their head the realisation really comes through. Nala is such a big part of our household and, with the risk of sounding like a crazy cat lady, she is a family member. Not knowing what was happening inside her and hearing things like neurological or heart related, cancer, thrombosis, epilepsy and serious infection – it was scary. Reading things on the Internet made it even worse. For now it looks like Nala is on the mend. We’ve got the all clear regarding leukeamia and are waiting out her antibiotics course, as well as what will happen when we take her off the medication that stops more seizures from happening. Hopefully we’ve seen the last of these kind of episodes and can look at it as two isolated events.
Tomorrow – Day 303 | Flexibility & uncertainty
