This has been the first week that didn’t start great and where I felt deflated. But thankfully it changed and it’s ended on a much more positive note.
Frustration
Time, or rather lack of, is the constant challenge and it can be very frustrating and disheartening. At the start of this week there were a lot of frustrations for other reasons as well and it took the energy out of me. For the first time I didn’t want to write these posts and I was generally feeling less than my usual optimistic and happy self. But a good chat and push from D put things into a different light and, as I wrote on Day 054, it re-emphasised how important it is, at least for me, to know that I have the support I need, but also that I’m being open with the ones that this is affecting. Cause it does have implications.
That feeling
Then we have a day like yesterday. Well rested, it’s the weekend and the sun is shining and Yellow and I spent the day down on Southbank working through the business plan and… The smile is back. I know exactly why I’m doing this. I really, really want to. It makes me so excited and I honestly cannot wait. We’re going to shape our futures into the future we want and by doing so we’ll affect other people as well. That is what really fills me with energy and what makes me want to get up early and stay up late.
This is what I want to do. I’ve known it for so long and it’s wonderful to actually be working on it, despite it currently only being in my spare time. But that’s soon changing. At least for a couple of weeks.
Tomorrow – Day 058 | The 1-17th of March
